As I get older I am finding there is a bit of a tug-of-war going on inside me. After spending a lifetime working hard to get where I am today but still (having to?) working I often think I should be enjoying myself more and letting the boat out a bit. This I do of course but with age comes wisdom and my wisdom tells me I should take things easy too. I know for instance that I shan’t be able to work forever and I have to consider my future security and this I have done and continue to do as I am able but I have to balance that against my present needs and desires. It is all about self-control. Long gone are the days of self-denial, of living my life as a lie and of denying myself the pleasures in life. There is a vast difference between self-control and self-denial though, one is based on wisdom and one is not. Of course I could be silly and live the high life 24/7 but I know that wouldn’t last too long, I am not that financially endowed. The best things in life are free despite what people say about money. A wise person understands this, a fool does not. There are other considerations too, the needs of family and friends. I would hate to be living my life to the full knowing that my family were in need, so I am prudent in my financial matters in case someone needs support. I enjoy my life very much and do pretty much what I want and I never feel guilty partaking in a bit of self-indulgence for I know it is sprinkled with wisdom.
Shirley Anne
