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Archive for December 22nd, 2009

The Cryin’ Game.

Posted by Shirley Anne on December 22, 2009

Does anyone remember the song ‘The Cryin’ Game’ by Dave Berry? Mid sixties I think it was. Tonight my ex. was watching Holby City on television and there were Christmas carols playing in the background. I just couldn’t stop the tears. I had been touched by the knowledge of being left alone at Christmas and through no real fault of my own. I felt so rejected at that moment and it hurt deep inside. This is the price I have to pay for just being me. Family become distant, not my immediate family, my sons but I feel so rejected at this time of year. This is one of the reasons I don’t celebrate Christmas. It is supposed to be a season of goodwill. Well it isn’t. I don’t know how people can live with their consciences knowing they reject you whilst at the same time having a ball themselves. This is the point I was making a short while ago in a recent post. People are selfish, they don’t really care if they hurt those around them. I know about the cryin’ game alright. Now I am ok but every once in a while the tears flow as I succumb to my feelings.

Shirley Anne

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Excited?

Posted by Shirley Anne on December 22, 2009

The party’s over, it’s time to call it a day…..
Well that’s how the song goes. I am talking about finishing work and enjoying the approach to Christmas Day. The sheep may be coming home but I still have things to do. Lately I have been talking about life and how much we should be enjoying our lot. Today I did a small job for an elderly guy whose wife died last week and who is getting laid to rest, as they say, on Christmas Eve. Although he will have family around him I am not sure he will be enjoying the holiday. When I was younger, as with most people, I would be really excited at the approach of Christmas and the day itself but these days it holds nothing of interest. I have bought the ubiquitous gifts for family and friends and that’s about it. The whole atmosphere in the preceding week prior to the day is one of excitement and I can see it in the faces of all I meet. I will be alone for most of Christmas Day and it won’t be the same as it used to be, which is the same for many people. I drove past a house this morning and somebody was delivering a Marquee. It appears that household will be having much company on Friday. I remember when I still lived with my parents many years ago and the many visitors we had each Christmas. How times have changed. I make no special meals for Christmas and probably will be tucking into beans on toast but at the end of the day, what’s the difference? Those of you with children will be enjoying Christmas in a special way and many say that Christmas is for children. Well that’s true in a round about way, we are all God’s children. Anyhow I hope everyone reading this has a wonderful and happy time on the day and afterwards too.

Shirley Anne

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