Yesterday it rained. Sounds a bit daft does that statement I suppose, especially when it is Winter in England or any other time in England for that matter! I mention it because we have just been through quite a few days of dry and still weather, however, they say February is the wettest and usually the coldest month of the year and that is just around the corner. I welcome the rain at this time of year because whilst it is raining it isn’t snowing! Heavy rain prevents working in the garden though and I, that is E and I have lots to do out there over the next couple of months. On my free days from work I have the opportunity to do some of that work but not if it is raining. I can turn to jobs around the house for there are plenty of those to do also but the outside work is more important just now.
It’s raining in my heart too. When we write posts on our blogs some of us write about life’s troubles as they affect us personally. I tend not to do that usually but at the same time I could write volumes if I wished to, although if you read some of my poems you will see how life has been unkind to me at times. Many of those poems relate to personal experience. People reading my ramblings may be under the impression that all is always ‘hunky-dorey’ in my life when often it isn’t. I am not alone, most people have problems in their lives and I’m no exception. I put on a happy face to the world when often I am hurting inside. I hurt because E is a difficult person to live with at times but I still love her. I hurt because she needs salvation. I hurt because she is stubborn and inflexible and won’t listen to reason sometimes. I hurt when people hurt me but I don’t retaliate, I pray for them. I hurt because of the selfishness of some people. I hurt because of all the needless suffering on the world. I hurt because of the bigotry and hate towards others for no real reason. I hurt because of mans inhumanity to man………………It’s raining in my heart and I hurt inside.
Shirley Anne