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Posted by Shirley Anne on June 20, 2011
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Yeah sure! It’s mostly the same old things just now, work, work and yes, you guessed it, more work! All around the house though. Sunday morning saw me rise fairly early and set about working on the new (?) garage roofline. A little history here. It was around 1998-9 that I began work on building this garage. Formerly it was a horses stable, not used as such for many years and very much neglected by the previous owner of the house and subsequently by ourselves. We didn’t intend on neglecting it but we had many other things to do at the time. One day whilst clearing it out I found that the rear wall was in such a bad state it was in danger of collapsing. The inside of the wall had been lined with heavy-duty plywood and it seems this was the only thing keeping it standing! The wall needed rebuilding but we decided at the time to take the opportunity to extend the stable back into the garden and convert it into a garage instead. This meant digging out a lot of ground and laying foundations to support new concrete to extend the existing good concrete floor. I actually did all this work myself but of course employed someone else to lay the concrete which was supplied ready-mixed. I had built foundations for the rear wall and filled in the area with hardcore, sand and a heavy-duty pvc liner to prevent moisture rising through the floor. After I had done this I set about building the rear and side walls and then erect joists and a roof. I had completely stripped the old roof away as it was leaking and needed replacing anyway. I employed someone to lay a covering over the plywood I had used to construct the new roof. By this time it was 2000-2001 and I was going through a bad patch at home. Actually I had been having matrimonial problems for some years prior and things were getting me down. I was beginning to lay the foundations for my transition and work on the garage stopped because I was under pressure with nobody to assist me in finishing the project. You can read more about this time of my life in the pages above. Needless to say after my transition I took no interest in much that was going on at home because nobody was taking any interest in me. I refused to be used any longer so I left things alone. It was a couple of years after my divorce when at last I made the move and tried to get my ex. to accompany me for lunch. We had been trying to sell the house for some years without success but things began to improve between us and we decided to stay together, that is live together but not in a close relationship, well not as it was before. Since that ‘first’ lunch our relationship has improved enormously and now couldn’t be better. I had no intentions of spending much on the house because it would have only been myself funding any works. E had no funds to speak of and could not afford to pay for renovations. I had a change of heart (something to do with love and my faith in God) and decided to splash out to the tune of (thus far) about £35.000 and get things done, doing what work I was physically able to do if I could. Prioritising meant that the poor old garage took another back seat in the renovation stakes! Over the last few weeks much has been done to the garage and yesterday I managed to do quite a lot especially on the fascia boards, fitting them where they hadn’t been fitted and painting them with a priming coat ready for the top coat perhaps this week. Windows have been fitted (just a little work on trims to do) and the next major job is to install the roller-shutter door once I can prepare the way and clean up the fittings that have become corroded waiting for them to be installed! The roller-shutter door has been stored in the garage for over ten years! It is well protected though and should be no problem once installed. There is no guarantee of course, that expired years ago! LOL.
Today, hopefully, the paving in the rear garden will be completed, that is if E’s nephew turns up. He has let us down before but I’ll have to wait and see if this time he will fulfill his promise.
Shirley Anne
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Posted by Shirley Anne on March 17, 2011
When the Israelites were instructed to drive out all the nations of peoples resident in the land that God had given them, the promised land (symbolic of the heavenly promised land to all believers), they did not do as God had told them. Consequently those people who were allowed to remain became a thorn in their side. One of those people were the Philistines who were the ancestors of present day Palestinians. Surprise, surprise! Now those who are an enmity to God, who refuse to believe His existence will declare that He God, the one they don’t believe in, is not a loving God and they don’t want anything to do with such a God. Totally illogical reasoning to reject someone, not believing in their existence and then blaming them for something. You cannot place blame on something that doesn’t exist! I digress. God had a very good reason to give the instruction He did but because He wasn’t obeyed chaos and unrest resulted. God was using Israel as an example to the rest of His creation. The events in the Bible, the Old Testament, were real events but they represent a spiritual future, they were prophetic events that happened in history. Many of those prophecies have come to pass and the rest have yet to be fulfilled. When these things are revealed to unbelievers they are immediately rejected. That of course is bound to happen but it doesn’t mean prophecy is untrue. The blind are blind and cannot see.
As believers in God we must believe in what He says. We must take Him at His word. The problem is that even some believers do not do this. Certain things are wrong in Gods eyes and He tells us what they are in Scripture. Those who believe will listen but others only wish to hear what they want to hear. If God says that homosexuality is wrong then homosexuality is wrong! If God says that stealing is wrong the stealing is wrong! If God says that He hates mediums and spiritists then they must be wrong! Now because many secularists think these things are not wrong they will automatically disagree. A lesbian, a homosexual, a thief, a fortune-teller will all be against God else they don’t believe what He says. God does not hate these people, far from it! He loves them and only wishes they would turn to Him in repentance. It is not the person He hates, it is what they do! As Christians we should also not hate others nor come against them but at the same time we should witness and pray that they will see sense and turn to God. On a personal note here, I know many homosexuals, lesbians and bi-sexual people, a few, well shall we say, unsavoury characters. I do not hate any of them. I love them, I pray for them and I try to be a witness and an example to them. I see them as God sees them, lost but not knowing it.
In our modern society we have mixed races of people living together, people of different faiths and religions and of different political views. We make an attempt at living in harmony but it is destined to fail on all fronts. This is because we cannot love one another as God has instructed us to do. We simply cannot live in harmony because of our differences. This is one reason that God told the Israelites to drive out the nations before them. God knew that there would be unrest, bitterness and hatred but the Israelites were a stubborn people and would not listen, very much like people today, they just will not listen. There will be a day though, as prophesied, when ALL people will bow the knee before their God or be cast aside. In the meantime the secular world thinks it has the answers to all of society’s problems. It hasn’t and it never will. There is too much intolerance, bigotry, hatred, selfishness, homophobia of all kinds for anything in secular society to work. There is a form of stability but it teeters on a knife-edge. The only way is Gods way. The petulant unbeliever, who only wants everyone else to accept them as they are or because of what they are is automatically at enmity with those who object. If it is a religion then that religion is declared immoral, homophobic and even evil. However it isn’t the religion that is at fault, it is the few vociferous members who, not truly following after God, who are at fault. Religion should not be a tool for ‘secular Bible bashing‘. Gods love is the tool for that task.
For the love of God is how and why we should be living. Let evil reside with those who hate God.
Shirley Anne
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Posted by Shirley Anne on March 11, 2011
What would you do if you were me
And I were you
What would we see?
What thoughts would swim inside your head
If you were me
And I were you instead?
For in the past I thought the same
As you do now
But I did change.
I’d think perhaps that you would too
If you were me
And I were you.
Copyright Shirley Anne 10 March 2011
I am a Christian believer. I believe in God, the Creator of all things, in Jesus the Christ (Messiah) His only begotten Son and in the Holy Spirit. I wasn’t born with these beliefs. Nobody is. In fact I was an atheist, a non-believer, an adamant non-believer who just would not entertain the idea that I could be wrong. This is documented in one of my pages above. I was an unbeliever of almost 44 years yet I was able to change and that in an instant! Being as I am now I am persuaded, encouraged, even commanded to tell others about this diamond of information, that God does exist, that Jesus paid the price for all my sins and that the Holy Spirit is within me. It isn’t that I do these things reluctantly either. I do these things because I want to. If I didn’t want to I wouldn’t be a real Christian. As it says in Scripture no-one lights a lamp and then hides it under a table! Knowing something different than I knew before is one thing but knowing what I knew before is nothing in light of what I know now! It is for this reason as much as anything else that compels me to spread the word. It doesn’t matter if nobody else agrees with what I say, it is important that they hear though even if they do not think so. I will have done my duty. If those who listen make no positive response then the consequences lie with them alone. Naturally they won’t see things that way because they see with different eyes, with a different spirit, just as I once did. Remember…just as I once did. What would they do if they were me? They would do exactly the same.
Shirley Anne
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Posted by Shirley Anne on January 25, 2011
Not that I’ve been anywhere distant lately but I am at home more often now. On Sunday morning I set about filling the new vegetable growing area with soil. It took about three hours of filling the wheelbarrow and a lot of little journeys between the soil mound and the growing area. I had to construct a temporary ramp too as the walls of the raised bed growing area stand about two feet off the ground. I didn’t do much work after that. Over the weekend, the floodlight over the front door became faulty, that is the detector. It is a split system with the detector separate from the light itself. It had been installed twenty years ago by yours truly and the detector system was low voltage. I had manufactured the control circuit myself but it finally gave up the ghost! Modern units run directly from the main supply so I had to convert that part of the wiring to accommodate a new one. This I did on Monday morning after a trip to the supplier. The guy across the road took a great interest in the woman in a skirt climbing up and down the ladder doing electrical work! It always seems to happen that when I am at home working I get calls to do work for other people. Monday was no exception. Today, Tuesday, I am out doing those jobs!
There is a bit of tension at home just now as E and I are not talking. She can be very abrasive at times and sometimes speaks to me in a hurtful way. It isn’t so much what she says, it’s the way she says it. I love her and she knows that but there is something in her which makes her act aggressively. I might ask a simple question and she snaps my head off for no reason at all. So rather than cause a row and argue with her, it would only make her worse anyhow, I keep out of her way. I never get an apology, I never expect one but it would be nice to get one nevertheless. Usually it is me who has to break the ice. What an iceberg though! LOL . I suppose a 99% good relationship is better than none.
I sit alone within my room
The day is long, the day is gloom
I fear to speak less I’m put down
And all is quiet, not a sound.
Do I deserve such punishment
When all I need’s a little love?
Is there no cure, is there no hope
For someone with a heart of stone?
Sometimes I wonder why I stay
Believing it will change one day,
And all I do is sit and cry
As time relentlessly goes by.
Copyright Shirley Anne 25 Jan 2011
Shirley Anne
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Posted by Shirley Anne on January 1, 2011
This year come 27th January I will have known E for 38 years and have lived with her for thirty-six and a half of them. We married 18 months after we met. Which means we know each other pretty well. I loved E from the beginning and that hasn’t changed despite all I have been through in our relationship. Oh there have been good times, wonderfully good times but there have been bad times too. Isn’t that the way for any marriage? I digress. Half-way through our marriage E became very ‘cold’ toward me and try as I might to resolve the problem it stayed that way. She would have good moments followed by bad ones and I was the recipient of her antagonism when she had these mood swings. There was no real reason for them, no medical reason that is. My live was often hell and I was treated like a leper sometimes. I persevered though because I loved her and felt sure she would see sense eventually. She didn’t and it led to our divorce. I had given up my whole life for her and denied myself a lifelong ambition to transition. I made up my mind to fully transition about six years before we divorced and did so three years before that event. For a while after the divorce we hardly spoke to each other but I couldn’t bear the atmosphere and did something about it. We had planned to sell up and move apart but those plans didn’t bear fruit and we agreed to stay together about three years ago. It works well and we get on very well now strangely enough. I have gone all out to please her and to give her what she wants, materially speaking. She knows that I love her, she has always known that, she has told me many times in the past. However she cannot stop treating me badly occasionally and I suppose I will never understand why. A few days ago she accused me of something, which wasn’t true by the way and I told her so and asked why she says such things. At this moment in time we are not speaking again! E has what you might call an abrasive side, she seems to delight in rubbing folk up the wrong way, she has a very short fuse too and is bad tempered! If you remember the old nursery rhyme, ‘when she was good, she was very, very good but when she was bad she was horrid’, that describes E to a ‘T’. The other morning I came down for breakfast and she was already up. She had finished breakfast and was watching the tv we have in the dining room. I wished her a good morning and she just grunted. I continued to prepare my breakfast whilst trying to chat with her. She didn’t wish to know. Why she is like that I have no idea. She wonders why I avoid her sometimes. Yesterday I treated myself to a few bottles of lager we have in the fridge and felt so miserable I decided to visit the pub. It was around nine in the evening and I had no intentions of staying there all night for the new year celebrations as I do not celebrate the occasion, I simply had to get out of the house for a while. The pub was packed with people enjoying themselves and I went straight to the bar and ordered my drink. Within minutes I had all sorts of people come up to me and give me a big hug, my friends. They asked why they hadn’t seen me there for a while. I made no excuses and told them I don’t bother going to the pub as often these days. They were all pleased to see me anyhow. I guess there must have been around thirty or forty hugs from my friends. After an hour or so I left and came back home. I’d had more drink than I wanted and was drunk! After a snack I went to bed and don’t remember much until six when I needed the toilet. I guess I was in bed by 11 o’clock and asleep by five past! I am having a rest today (sabbath) and intend to do nothing at all. E still isn’t speaking to me but I know that will change soon so I won’t press it. Peace on earth and goodwill toward all men (and women)? Yes but only when it suits some people it seems.
Shirley Anne
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Posted by Shirley Anne on December 7, 2010
Today I take my little van in for a routine service, a 12,000 mile service. The handbook tells me that the interval is every 12,000 miles! I did have it serviced after 6,000 miles and presumably the next service would be at 18,000 miles but there is no harm in having a shorter service interval. Yesterday I had one small job to do and was back home after an hour or so, meanwhile my youngest son was having a lie in bed. His vehicle couldn’t be started using the starter motor on Saturday but a breakdown crew got him mobile so he could come home and visit with us. He arranged to have his car repaired yesterday and a local garage did the work. He had been quoted £240 to have a replacement starter motor fitted by one company and £210 by another but I told him to ask at our local garage. They repaired the problem for £80. It pays to shop around doesn’t it? I gave my son the £80 to have the job done because I know he is having problems trying to save and pay off his university fees as well. It is a tremendous burden for young people going to university when they are landed with a huge financial debt afterward so I help both my sons whenever I am able. It is important to ‘service’ relationships too! To that end I might treat E to another nice lunch later.
Shirley Anne
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Posted by Shirley Anne on December 3, 2010
There isn’t one person living on this planet who is immune from ailments and disorders. Each one of us has at one point suffered an illness or a disorder of some sort. Some things are very minor whilst others can be debilitating or even life-threatening. We would all like to think ourselves perfect but none of us are. Even those who enjoy fairly good health get struck with something sometimes. Then there are those who suffer from mental or psychological problems, some of which may be mild but some severe in the extreme. Scientists glibly say that everything is in our genes and they are probably right. I guess you could then say well it is the luck of the draw. No illness is pleasant but it can be worse when others have little or so sympathy or worse still, no understanding. People who suffer an illness or other disorder are often rejected too. Not only can we be physically or psychologically impaired but we can be spiritually impaired too! Having the right attitude to those around us is important, even if it isn’t reciprocated; in fact it is probably more important. We are told in Scripture to love one another ‘even as I have loved you’, Jesus said. That love is the love that sees through each other’s faults be they physical or otherwise but how many of us would have it in us? Too many want to point the finger, ridicule, condemn, and judge. The first rule is to look inward and correct the faults we see in ourselves before we pass judgement on others. Indeed no-one on this planet is perfect, we all suffer one form of ailment or disorder.
Shirley Anne
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Posted by Shirley Anne on October 20, 2010
Those of you who by your own admission are unbelievers will not understand what I am writing about here. It will seem meaningless but you might suggest that it ‘works for me’ and leave it at that. It isn’t however something ‘that works for me’ as though it was dependent on my belief. It is outside of that. It does not depend on what I think or say or do. I just want to say that God works in so many differeent ways and He does so in my life, often. I have reached that point in my life whereby I can rest in the assurance of Gods love and provision. If all the world around me falls apart I know that God loves me and provides for me. It is often in the small things that He operates, things we may overlook at the time but are revealed to us after the event, if we are open to His voice. I look back over the day and see where He has been involved. I look back over the week and know what He has done for me. I look back over my life and wonder how I managed without Him. The fact is, I didn’t. If God is on my side, who can be against me? Read this………
Romans 8 (New International Version)
Life through the Spirit
1Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus, 2because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit of life set me free from the law of sin and death. 3For what the law was powerless to do in that it was weakened by the sinful nature, God did by sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful man to be a sin offering. And so he condemned sin in sinful man, 4in order that the righteous requirements of the law might be fully met in us, who do not live according to the sinful nature but according to the Spirit.
5Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires. 6The mind of sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace; the sinful mind is hostile to God. It does not submit to God’s law, nor can it do so. 8Those controlled by the sinful nature cannot please God.
9You, however, are controlled not by the sinful nature but by the Spirit, if the Spirit of God lives in you. And if anyone does not have the Spirit of Christ, he does not belong to Christ. 10But if Christ is in you, your body is dead because of sin, yet your spirit is alive because of righteousness. 11And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit, who lives in you.
12Therefore, brothers, we have an obligation—but it is not to the sinful nature, to live according to it. 13For if you live according to the sinful nature, you will die; but if by the Spirit you put to death the misdeeds of the body, you will live, 14because those who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. 15For you did not receive a spirit that makes you a slave again to fear, but you received the Spirit of sonship. And by him we cry, “Abba, Father.” 16The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s children. 17Now if we are children, then we are heirs—heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in his glory.
Can you cry ‘Abba, Father’ and know He listens? He will if you are a child of His…………………
Shirley Anne
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Posted by Shirley Anne on October 6, 2010
1 Peter 1
1Peter, an apostle of Jesus Christ,
To God‘s elect, strangers in the world, scattered throughout Pontus, Galatia, Cappadocia, Asia and Bithynia, 2who have been chosen according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, through the sanctifying work of the Spirit, for obedience to Jesus Christ and sprinkling by his blood:
Grace and peace be yours in abundance.
Praise to God for a Living Hope
3Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade—kept in heaven for you, 5who through faith are shielded by God’s power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. 6In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. 7These have come so that your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. 8Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, 9for you are receiving the goal of your faith, the salvation of your souls.
10Concerning this salvation, the prophets, who spoke of the grace that was to come to you, searched intently and with the greatest care, 11trying to find out the time and circumstances to which the Spirit of Christ in them was pointing when he predicted the sufferings of Christ and the glories that would follow. 12It was revealed to them that they were not serving themselves but you, when they spoke of the things that have now been told you by those who have preached the gospel to you by the Holy Spirit sent from heaven. Even angels long to look into these things.
Be Holy
13Therefore, prepare your minds for action; be self-controlled; set your hope fully on the grace to be given you when Jesus Christ is revealed. 14As obedient children, do not conform to the evil desires you had when you lived in ignorance. 15But just as he who called you is holy, so be holy in all you do; 16for it is written: “Be holy, because I am holy.”[a]
17Since you call on a Father who judges each man’s work impartially, live your lives as strangers here in reverent fear. 18For you know that it was not with perishable things such as silver or gold that you were redeemed from the empty way of life handed down to you from your forefathers, 19but with the precious blood of Christ, a lamb without blemish or defect. 20He was chosen before the creation of the world, but was revealed in these last times for your sake. 21Through him you believe in God, who raised him from the dead and glorified him, and so your faith and hope are in God.
22Now that you have purified yourselves by obeying the truth so that you have sincere love for your brothers, love one another deeply, from the heart.[b] 23For you have been born again, not of perishable seed, but of imperishable, through the living and enduring word of God. 24For,
”All men are like grass,
and all their glory is like the flowers of the field;
the grass withers and the flowers fall,
25but the word of the Lord stands forever.”[c] And this is the word that was preached to you.
New International Version (NIV)
Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984 by Biblica
I and many others stand next to those to whom Peter was addressing. We (believers) are part of God’s family and his words are directed to us in this day just as when they were directed to those in days past. I love this passage of Scripture because it strengthens my faith.
Shirley Anne
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Posted by Shirley Anne on October 1, 2010
I simply love this song and the message it contains……..
In Christ Alone
Written by Keith Getty & Stuart Townend
___G____D______G______A
In Christ alone my hope is found
D/F#____G______A_________D
He is my light my strength my song
____G____D________G____A
This Cornerstone, this solid Ground
D/F#__________G______A_________D
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
_____D/F#____G_________D/F#_____A
What heights of love, what depths of peace
_____D/F#____G_________D/F#____A
When fears are stilled when strivings cease!
___G_____D____G___A
My Comforter my All in All
D/F#_____G______A_____D
Here in the love of Christ I stand
In Christ alone! – who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe!
This Gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
Till on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was satisfied -
For every sin on Him was laid:
Here in the death of Christ I live
There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again!
And as He stands in victory
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine -
Bought with the precious blood of Christ
No guilt in life no fear in death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life’s first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
Till he returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand!
©2001 CCLI #3350395
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Shirley Anne
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Posted by Shirley Anne on July 23, 2010
Today has been somewhat different from days of late in that I have been quite busy at work. My first job was in an adjacent township about eight or nine miles away and was soon finished. The second job was back in my home town of Southport. This second job required me to drive past my old church building, something I do regularly but something I hadn’t done for a couple of weeks before today. I was shocked to see that half of the building has been demolished! It seems that the building is being completely demolished. The church office was always located in recent years, in an adjacent row of old houses and it is now up for sale. So the church has disbanded or moved to pastures new, I do not know which. The building itself was erected in the late 1800′s and it is a shame that such an old building should be demolished. I drove on to my job and past the place later for a last look on my way back home. I thought no more about it until now but I find that I am having deep feelings of loss. I spent about ten years as a member there and it was there that I was baptised by full immersion. I left the congregation almost twelve years ago now for personal reasons and at that time with tears. I never did find another fellowship and in a way I think that was meant to be because I have learned more about my faith and how I am supposed to live my life according to God’s will, something I now understand wasn’t possible in that church. Nevertheless I do feel a sense of loss, I think about my brothers and sisters and what has happened to them and what will happen to them. There are many things wrong in the Church, many wrong doctrines and practices and certainly wrong attitudes to God’s Word. I won’t preach here save to say the way is written in the Word but not many follow what is said there. However believers are all my brothers and sisters and I love them for it.
Shirley Anne
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Posted by Shirley Anne on July 14, 2010
A dedication
What is my life if not filled with your love?
I would but be an empty shell
Devoid of life itself.
You make my life worth living
For nothing else compares
It is all vanity.
Without you in my heart
The very essence of my being
Would not exist,
For you my Father are all that I am
All that I need
All that I want.
What shall I compare you to?
There is nothing
My words are not enough,
You are beyond all understanding
Too marvelous for words,
It is enough to simply know you in my heart
For in that knowledge I have purpose
A reason to live
You are my Father and I love you
Shirley Anne
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Posted by Shirley Anne on April 28, 2010
When I started this blog over fifteen months ago I was confronted by a journalistic and an editorial challenge, things of which I had little experience. The main idea for starting the blog was to put my ideas and experiences of life to the world and of course to reach out to others who might take an interest in me and what I was all about. It wasn’t my idea to create an all singing, all dancing, fully interactive site filled with a lot of unnecessary movies, pictures and sounds. All I wanted was a site that had something of interest for everyone who visited. I didn’t want a site that was dedicated to just one theme either. That would be boring and would limit my readership. It had to be a site that was not too packed with trivia and one that was presented in a simple straight-forward way with no flashing lights, musical introductions or anything else that distracted from content. Sites like that, to me at least, usually have little to say and need the ‘padding’ in the hope that it will entertain. I read blogs because I am interested in people, not because they have fancy ‘over-the-top’ presentations. I hope that those reading my blog will have the same approach. This site is presented in a simple way and hopefully doesn’t need ‘decorating’. It is a journal of my life and interests, my views and beliefs and if that isn’t enough, well my readers can always go elsewhere. I hope though that they don’t!
Shirley Anne
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Posted by Shirley Anne on April 27, 2010
I don’t know about you but I get impatient quite often. If I have a plan I need to see it executed as soon as possible. This is the feeling I have right now with the jobs I am having done in and around the house, I want things to happen. Knowing however that things will happen when those doing the work are ready means that I will just have to bide my time. When at work I want the job doing as soon as possible but I know that I can only work so fast. It is one thing being impatient with one’s self but quite another to be impatient with others. We are all different and we live at our own pace and do things at our own pace. Sometimes and not often enough, I chastise myself when I become impatient with someone. I am trying my best to have patience but some things and some people really do test how patient I am. Is it possible to be impatient with one’s self? I am sure it is and it might seem a bit ridiculous but we should try to forgive ourselves when we are and then forgive those who make us impatient too. They have done nothing wrong.
Shirley Anne
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Posted by Shirley Anne on January 7, 2010
Over the last say thirty years (it’s been so long I cannot remember accurately) the eldest of my two brothers has distanced himself from me, well specifically, the family. Once I used to visit him or for the most part his wife (for he was seldom at home) quite regularly. He has always been like this with us, his siblings and none of us really knows why. A couple of years ago I managed to catch him at home and we talked, mostly about my transition because by this time I had fully transitioned, operation and all. That was the last time I saw him until two weeks before Christmas in 2008. He and his wife paid us, or should I say my ex. a visit. They had thought I had moved away and I think they were surprised to see I hadn’t. We invited them to a meal at home the following week. We were to give them a Christmas present each. They did not show up. All my life I have forgiven him his ways and still do in the hope he will change. I suppose he never will but I must continue to forgive and be ready to accept him if he calls.
More recently it seems that a friend of mine is doing the same thing, distancing herself from me. About two months ago I had invited her to a meal out for Christmas with family and friends. She made some excuse about wanting to pay her own way. I only found that out through a mutual friend. I thought something was amiss when she didn’t answer my text messages or answer her phone although I have repeatedly tried contacting her. One night about a week or so before Christmas (09) I was talking to two women in the local pub and asked them if they would ask her to contact me for they were about to meet with her somewhere else. I noticed the strange look they were giving me when I explained that I had had trouble contacting her. I went home later feeling a little sad. I get the feeling she isn’t speaking to me and I don’t know why. Have you ever had that feeling of rejection and not known the reason for it? It hurts. I know, I have been rejected a few times in my adult life without any real reason. The point is this, if I have wronged the girl I would rather know what I’d done and maybe we could chat about it and make amends. However, I am at a loss as to what I might have done to upset her. I don’t believe I have, not knowingly at least. I forgive her for everything, I have to, it is the right thing to do but I would rather she and I were the close friends I thought we were. I cannot understand it all.
Shirley Anne
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