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Far different

Posted by Shirley Anne on May 19, 2012

Fred Neher's Life's Like That

Fred Neher’s Life’s Like That (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

This past week has been far different from the previous one for me in quite a few ways. I am out of the ‘couldn’t care less attitude’ I had, I have been out socialising more, I have met new people and I have been kept quite busy working too! Life’s good as they say but I’ve known that for quite some time. All in all I cannot complain and I plan to enjoy myself even more in the future whilst I am still able. Most of the news I’ve heard this past week has been quite depressing, much like it has been for some time. I hear sad things and have to try to not let it bother me but for a time I find that impossible. A recent example was the family of six children meeting their deaths through smoke inhalation after what now appears to have been an arson attack on their home. I don’t understand how anyone could do such a thing but of course there is much evil in this world. Many good things have happened too I’m sure but it is usually the bad things that we remember isn’t it? The weather has improved too, although it is still colder than it traditionally has been at this time of year and there is talk of June being equally as cold! Perhaps this year is going to be another one with a cool summer but that really doesn’t bother me too much. It won’t change any plans I might make. On a more personal note E and I are still estranged as far as communication is concerned. It has now been almost thirteen weeks since we spoke. I have all but given up on her ever apologising for her behaviour which is very sad indeed. I have to get on with my life and not let it bother me too much although I think about it often during the day. I continue to pray for her. I think about my life and how it has changed over the years like chapters in a novel with each chapter different from the others and how I have had to cope with those changes. It’s all about being adaptable I suppose and making the most of each set of circumstances I find myself in. My life now is far different to what it was even a few years ago. Whether I consider it better, well I’m not sure I’ll answer that question.

Shirley Anne

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Is this you?

Posted by Shirley Anne on April 27, 2012

Devoid

Devoid (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

I’m too busy right now to see you,

I’ve too much to do today,

If only each day had more hours,

I might have some time left to play.

How is it that each precious moment

Is filled with our own selfish things

Not wishing to spend time with others,

Pursuing our own empty dreams?

For what is a life that is lonely

Bereft of companions and friends?

A schedule whose pages are empty,

Devoid of all meaning, it ends.

So make time and space for each other,

Defer things that stand in your way,

Live life to the fullest and savour,

Those friendships before it’s too late!

Copyright Shirley Anne 4 Dec 2002 Poem listed in My Poems 5 above

It isn’t my attitude to life but it does seem to be for others I know. Living in a community, amongst family and friends, if we have any, can be difficult at times. Everyone has an agenda or an excuse. Sometimes we don’t see the need others might have for us or maybe we think they get in the way of our plans. I mean what plans are so important that we don’t have time for others? Scripture tells us and we are told only too often by others that we should love our neighbour. That doesn’t just mean those living next-door but everyone else on this planet is our neighbour, anyone we come across in life is our neighbour. If we have no time for anyone else what are we living for? There are matters to which we must attend to obviously but they don’t take up our complete life do they? Take time for one another, bear each other’s burdens if we can. I speak as a Christian but the truth of the matter remains the same for everyone.

Shirley Anne

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It’s an age thing

Posted by Shirley Anne on April 13, 2012

Children playing card game, Vietnam

Children playing card game, Vietnam (Photo credit: UW Digital Collections)

I overheard a couple of teenagers talking about how things were with them a few years ago, how their games machines have improved to what they used to be. I smiled. When I was their age there was no such thing as a games machine, we had to play board games or playing-card games. It was either this or playing physical games like hide-and-seek, hopscotch, skipping, football and other ball games. I seem to remember wanting to be outdoors most of the time and reluctantly having to remain indoors whenever the weather was bad. This meant that the indoor games we had available never became boring. I was born in an age when refrigerators were only just beginning to become popular and available. No-one I knew had a telephone and any calls we might like to make had to be done in a public telephone kiosk. How things have changed as the years rolled by. The humble telephone has now become a portable computer, television, games machine, application administrator for all sorts of tasks. These days we can even navigate using the telephone, the mobile telephone that is but even the house-bound variety is beginning to catch up in some areas. Possibly there will be no such thing as a land-line telephone system in future, who knows? It seems an age since the first household computers became readily available, in fact about thirty or so years ago. How primitive they were too! Lacking computing power they were almost toys but the technology didn’t stand still. Immense progress has been made in the development of computers so much so as there are now very few areas in modern life that have not involved the use of a computer of some sort or another. When asked about computers most people immediately think of a laptop these days or perhaps a screen sitting on top of a desk together with a separate keyboard. The actual computer is sitting in the box beneath the desk or as in the case of a laptop is hidden beneath the keyboard. Computers have shrunk in size whilst growing in capability. Mainframe computers run industry and banks and they don’t look anything like the household variety but the principle is the same for both. Industrial computers do not require screens other than for inputting information, running processes or interrogation. Most of the time they are not even manned. It is the same for computers in cars and other similar things. They have no screen or keyboard and they happily beaver away behind the scenes. With such power computers have radically changed the way we play some games. They have enabled us to be actively engaged in the games that we are playing. A far cry from the simple computer games of the eighties. Each generation is born into a new age of technological achievement and advancement quite often forgetting how things used to be. It is all history to them, it is a history that is catching up rapidly. Once, long ago, things moved at a sedate pace and history was something remembered from many years, even centuries before whereas now things that happened last year are ready to be classed as history. Everything that is passed is history of course but developments are so fast today that many things have become ‘old hat’ before the warranty has expired. I remember when………

Shirley Anne

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I can only do so much

Posted by Shirley Anne on December 3, 2011

Exercising with Good Housekeeping

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I am quite an active person, when there are things to do I get on with them. These days my electrical work comes and goes and I find myself either with nothing to do on some days and at other times I am fully occupied. Now I am not getting any younger, like everyone else, so I cannot do as much now as I was once able to do but even so I do far more than most people I know of the same age. I get tired of course I do but strangely enough I don’t seem to be able to sleep for longer periods than 4 or 5 hours at a time. On Wednesday morning I planned to get up early and have a stint on my treadmill as I had no scheduled work. I went to bed at 11.30 the night before but watched television until around 1 am. I woke up around 6 but that is an estimate, I don’t have a clock in the room and I couldn’t be bothered to check the time on my mobile phone. I could tell approximately that is was 6 o’clock by the amount of light coming through the chink in the curtains. I closed my eyes again and went back to sleep. I didn’t wake up until 10.30. I really must have been tired. That happens sometimes when I need that extra sleep. It can be a bit awkward as we get older, not needing much sleep and therefore having more time awake but less to do in it! Physically I can only do so much but whilst I am still able I do what I can. The important thing is to find something to keep me interested. I spent almost half an hour on the treadmill before returning upstairs to bathe and dress and had the rest of the day to myself. Most of it was spent doing household chores and pursuing my hobbies. The exercising does help by the way!

Shirley Anne

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Another hour

Posted by Shirley Anne on October 31, 2011

World map with temperate zones highlighted in red

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Yesterday morning at 2 o’clock we turned our clocks back an hour to compensate for the shortening daylight hours. It is really only a token gesture though for an hour gained in the morning is soon lost in the afternoon as far as daylight goes. It simply means the sun will rise an hour earlier and set an hour earlier by the clock. We can set the clock to any time we wish of course but we are creatures of habit and are used to being active during the daylight hours and not so much during the night. Talk about extending that one hour shift to two hours has been going on for years but no decisions have yet been made and in fact more recently it has been suggested we move the clock an hour forward permanently and not shift it back in Spring. It is all relative in my estimation. Take for example the reasons for shifting the clock. Originally it was to provide farmers with more daylight hours according to the clock, to be able to do their work and for children to be able to attend school, going to it and coming from it in as much daylight time as possible. Farmers of course don’t need to work to the clock. The daylight hours don’t change in quantity because of a move on a dial. Society though runs on a schedule and rather than have everyone’s schedule shifted to accommodate the fewer daylight hours it was deemed easier to simply alter the clock. It makes sense. However an extra hour in the day might be easy to swallow up and one less hour at the other end of the year catered for but two hours would be more difficult to make adjustments to. Some countries have overcome this problem by bringing about the two-hour shift in two stages, perhaps two months apart so that one hour is added (or subtracted) a month or two later than the first. This would extend the amount of daylight hours available or rather make more use of the hours we get. The further north we are on the globe though, the less effective the system becomes and if inside the Arctic Circle it is academic for the sun doesn’t rise at all for much of the time. Conditions nearer the equator remain similarly unaffected by such amendments of the clock as the changes in daylight hours are smaller. Here in the temperate zone the advantages of shifting the clock can be beneficial, not least for the extra hour in bed! Don’t remind me though that I get one hour less in Spring!

Shirley Anne

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I get these feelings sometimes

Posted by Shirley Anne on August 13, 2011

Que Sera Sera

Image by CodeCutter via Flickr

Reading other people’s blogs is one of my pastimes when online and I read a few but not too many of them, I have too many other things to do. I find what others write about very revealing and their posts often provoke me to comment. Hopefully I do that tactfully. I often find that I can offer some advice having been through similar experiences to theirs and I hope too that any advice I give is helpful and supportive. Many of the things people write about concern their everyday lives and problems, especially those who, like me have transitioned or are going through transition. They write about things like acceptance, homophobia and transphobia in particular, love, relationships and a host of other things too. Sometimes I avoid responding to some posts especially where I have strong feelings on the subject opposing what is written. One of these subjects is religion. It is hard for someone like myself who, after many years as an atheist, became a Christian who reads about the moral issues and habits of non-Christians. I have to try to tread carefully so as not to upset people with any response but at the same time wanting to witness to them. Well everyone is different of course and I sometimes feel that Que Sera, Sera will inevitably rule. I read about the problems others like myself have when facing the world with the animosity and homophobia rearing their ugly heads from time to time. When I first transitioned I was fairly often picked upon by some people who had obviously ‘clocked’ me. Not a pleasant thing to endure but endure them we must. These days only very rarely does anyone look at me twice. It is hard for people like myself to get back in the queue of life having stepped out along the way. There should be no problem getting back in line because the space we left for a spell can only be filled by ourselves, the person didn’t leave the planet, just changed appearance! In my personal thoughts I sometimes feel that I don’t quite fit in, haven’t been fully accepted, am only tolerated, I am pitied. None of these thoughts are rational for in reality I have fitted back into the slot I once left whilst making the detour. When I visited the USA a couple of years ago there was a special reason, best known to the officials at the airport in New York for separating males from females. The men were allowed through the checkpoint and the women were made to stand there like dolls in a window with all and sundry gawping at them as they passed through. It was a very uncomfortable feeling having to stand there with my sisters, on show, fully exposed and with nowhere to turn. A case for testing one’s confidence if ever there was one! I had no problem of course but I did feel a little uneasy, half expecting someone to point the finger at me. Thankfully that didn’t happen and I had no problems at all during my whole stay in that country. It is nice to know that you fit in, that you are accepted as the person you are and the gender you are and not just simply tolerated. A lifetime of dysphoria coupled with bullying results in a lack of confidence that is hard to redeem. I was once in that boat and although now a land-lubber still have pangs of anxiousness now and then. I get these feelings sometimes.

Shirley Anne

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Time on my hands

Posted by Shirley Anne on February 7, 2011

This last weekend saw me with plenty of time on my hands. It has been a very wet and windy couple of days, the kind of days nobody like being outside in. I was stuck indoors hoping for some dry weather so I could carry on with the work in the garden but I suppose it was better that I rested. I wasn’t really feeling good but I usually try to work those feelings out of my system by getting involved in something. As it happened I did next to nothing, even playing my guitar didn’t change my mood like it usually does. At least today I have some electrical work to keep me occupied for a couple of hours. I can only hope that the week will improve. The weekend wasn’t completely wasted as I gave some thought to what I plan to do in other areas of the garden once I have finished the present project. Having all this time on my hands has seen me looking out of the window a lot and something I realised whilst doing that was the fact that we haven’t seen our two squirrels lately darting up and down the huge tree and into the garden. Either they are keeping a low profile while they rear their offspring or else they have abandoned their home. I am not sure when squirrels breed or when they give birth so it could be that the female is still pregnant and keeping out of sight. It is the season for owls though because I hear them in the night when they sing out with that distinctive hoot. Perhaps the squirrels have become owl food, who knows?

Shirley Anne

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Don’t speak too soon

Posted by Shirley Anne on December 15, 2010

I was lamenting the fact that my workload has dropped lately when the phone rang. Always seems to happen that way. I am not complaining about the lack of work as I am enjoying more free time for myself. I don’t feel under pressure as much as I did in the past. My age has something to do with it of course, it’s only natural to want to wind down a tad as we get older. There is no urgency to get things done nowadays. I dare not say that I work part-time, even though I do; once I admit to that one the following week finds me up to my ears in work. Everyone’s job is urgent to them of course and I often get sob stories about that. ‘If I don’t get the electrics done I can’t have the builders in’ or something along those lines is quoted. Recently one old guy had an urgent job for me to do and he called me on a Saturday morning. Well Saturday is my day off so I explained that unless it was very urgent I would call on Sunday or Monday. I went on Monday at his request. The ‘urgent’ job was simply that two upstairs lights were not working! There were table lights available for use so he wasn’t without lights. Urgent to me would be a total loss of power or a dangerous situation that needed immediate attention. I always ask questions over the phone to make sure I am not being put upon. Traditionally, the run-up to Christmas has always been a busy time of the year for me and in a way I am glad things are less so this year. The beauty about working for one’s self is that I can choose to take breaks whenever I want and this I do quite often. The calls keep coming in though! On Monday just passed, I was half-way to my dentist when the phone rang. It was another of those ‘urgent’ jobs. Although I was driving I took the call through my hands-free system and explained what I was doing but I told the client I would call in about two hours. It was a very simple job and she is a valued client so I obliged her and did it; mind you I wasn’t dressed for work because E and I were going out for lunch. The job only required the use of a small screwdriver; five minutes and it was done. Never say never and never speak too soon, you never know what is going to happen. Yesterday morning I did another small job and then spent the rest of the day at home. I have been planning several jobs around the house and garden and have started the ball rolling on those. I have outstanding orders for equipment and materials  for those jobs which prevent me proceeding further but what’s the bet that when I get them something else will prevent me doing that? I have all the time in the world…………..maybe!

Shirley Anne

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Busy but not too busy

Posted by Shirley Anne on October 15, 2010

Yesterday afternoon, I had been out working during the morning, I had some spare time on my hands. Oh there was and still are lots of things to do but they are not urgent. I spent an hour on my guitar and returned to the front lounge with nothing in particular in mind to do. E had gone out on her usual Thursday shopping trip with her mom and I was alone. I lit the gas fire for the first time since April, mainly to blow away the dust and cobwebs (we have plenty of those…LOL) but also to see how long the room would take to cool down to a noticeable level before the fire was needed again. If you remember, we have had new double-glazed windows installed throughout the house, so this was really to test their efficiency. I sat down and did some reading but after ten minutes I had to switch the fire off, it was warm enough. I switched from reading to going on-line and during the next half hour I found myself pleasantly drifting in and out of little cat-naps. Wonderful! If there is one thing in life I really like doing it is having little cat-naps. I like sleeping anyway, I always have done, it’s the getting out of bed that annoys me! I am disciplined though, so if I need to arise, I do not procrastinate and hesitate to do so. Today I did another small job and that makes the whole of this week busy for me but not too busy. When I am asked if I work full-time, part-time or am self-employed I always state the latter because it is true but it doesn’t convey the actual hours I work each week. That of course is almost impossible to predict when one is self-employed, the hours vary from week to week but in my case you could say that I am a variable part-time worker! I like it that way, I no longer really need long hours to make ends meet so to speak. The time I get to myself is much more than it used to be and the beauty of it is, I control when and if I want to work.

Tonight is a family night out for E, myself and our two sons. Our daughter-in-law cannot come because of work! We are dining out by way of a birthday treat for E whose birthday was on Monday. Tomorrow will be another day free from work for me as it is my sabbath day of rest.

Shirley Anne

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Double quick time

Posted by Shirley Anne on September 23, 2010

My plan today was to do the two jobs I had before returning home later in the day. I left the house around 8.45 and was back home at 11.15 despite the second job being 14 miles away! I know I am quick, people tell me that too but sometimes I excel even my own expectations. So I have the whole day to myself. As I write this it is almost 1 o’clock. Already I have spent an hour on my guitar and had a bite to eat. Now I am thinking of what to do next.

I don’t know what it is about me but I am usually quick when doing anything. I rush through things, without cutting corners I have to say, because I want to see them finished. Some people take their time but I am not one of them. When I tackle a job I can already see it completed in my mind’s eye. When problems get in the way it annoys me but I expect them to appear. Very rarely do I find a task without any problems whatsoever. Having worked continuously for more than 48 years, except for breaks (lol), I pretty much know what to expect when tackling a job, that also means jobs outside of my vocational occupation as an electrician. You and I would call it ‘experience’. I wonder why some people do things contrary to what I would call ‘common sense‘ but then I realise that they simply lack the experience in life, just like I once did. Academics are sometimes very clever people, of course not all of them are. They might be very intellectual and have great knowledge about things but many of them don’t know how to knock a nail in wood, to coin a phrase. It has nothing to do with their knowledge, it is simply a lack of experience. There are many things I cannot do and some things I can do but which take time to complete because of my lack of experience. Everything else I do I seem to do in double-quick time! It’s a little silly though sometimes because it can lead me to over-working myself or sitting around bored stiff! I realise that I should pace myself and get into a slower gear but hey, that’s who I am. At the very least I am motivated, once I start of course!

Shirley Anne

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What will you do tomorrow?

Posted by Shirley Anne on March 14, 2010

Today it is Mothering Sunday or Mother’s Day here in the UK. It is a time to celebrate mothers. Children bear gifts and show appreciation of their mothers. Many mothers will be taken out to dinner or have a party in their honour. Others will have a quiet time with their loved ones and family. Sons and daughters will have spent time planning what to buy or where to dine and how to make the day special and today they hope their mothers will enjoy it all. What will they be doing tomorrow? We all have plans of one sort or another. We plan to get up from our beds and face the day ahead. We plan our work, our meals, our holidays, our special days all in the hope that they will happen. We expect that nothing will go wrong and that all our aspirations will be met. What if the unexpected happens? Would you be prepared to face the unusual, especially if it was something totally out of your belief system? What will you do tomorrow when your world falls around you, all that you hold sincere is destroyed and you find yourself living in an entirely different life to that which you are accustomed? It’s not going to happen you say. You are secure and nothing is going to change your world. Remember John Lennon singing ‘Nothing’s going to change my world’? Something did change his world. Today is where you live. Tomorrow, that is the tomorrow you expect, is not guaranteed. The future holds many surprises and not all of them are good.

Shirley Anne

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It’s a funny thing. Or is it?

Posted by Shirley Anne on March 12, 2010

I received an Email today from a site I subscribe to. The guy was talking about prophecy and about the things he knew as a twelve-year-old child now becoming a reality some fifty years later. He was talking about the demise of America and Great Britain (Great? Mmmm..I wonder.) at this present time. Two great nations suffering in a financial slump. Not only they but the European Community too. These and many more things are actually in prophecy. The Bible warns us both in the Old and New Testaments about the things we see happening in our generation. The Bible calls it ‘The end times’. Now I am not saying that ‘The end times’ are nigh but it is a sobering thought that it is a possibility. The Bible speaks of wars in diverse places, earthquakes and other things that happen with greater frequency. Do we not see these things happening even now? If it were the end times now then the signs we see are but just the beginning. What follows is prophesied as being far more catastrophic, especially for the unbeliever, the cynic. It isn’t a funny thing really if it is indeed true and although the end times might be just a little further away than we think, they nevertheless will happen and our children might be the ones who suffer.
For those who think this is foolishness I will simply say that many prophecies in the Bible have already come to pass.
An added thought spoken by that guy I mentioned was that in today’s world we have great knowledge at our fingertips and can know about anything that happens around the globe almost in an instant but we can fail to see the significance of some of the signs the Bible describes in the leading up to the end time. The Bible also speaks about people dashing here and there acquiring great knowledge. Something to think about.

Shirley Anne

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Thought I’d finished.

Posted by Shirley Anne on December 29, 2009

I had this vision on Christmas Eve. I thought I’d finished work for the rest of the year. Funny how things change. Yesterday I attended an emergency request and today I did a job for a guy who would have had me there yesterday had I been daft enough to go but he paid me well. Yesterday was a national holiday here in the UK but I didn’t mind the emergency call out which also paid well for the very short time I was there. Today however is just another working day. Many people will have taken a long break lasting from Christmas Eve until the 4th January and I had this fanciful idea I might do the same. Fat chance eh? Being self-employed I tend not to refuse work but I do try to spread it out. Clients of course don’t know my age until I tell them and then it would only be during the time I am working for them. Well they may consider me too old and ask somebody else! I am quite capable though but I am selective in the work I choose to do, I specialise in smaller tasks which none of the regular electricians seem to want to do. That is because they are usually tied up on large contracts. It works well for me because it means I get heaps of work. I don’t need to push myself too hard, I don’t need to guarantee myself a minimum income each week but I get it anyway! The thing is I can take time off pretty much when I feel like it. A nice position to be in yes but I’ve worked hard all my life to be able to take things easy now. So no, I haven’t finished working yet but I hope I can at least see the rest of the year out without doing another tap!

Shirley Anne

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Remember me?

Posted by Shirley Anne on November 2, 2009

I get calls all the time by people wanting jobs done. Just as well as it is my livelyhood! Joking apart though even though many of my jobs come from my weekly newspaper advert and some through recommendation, I get old clients calling me for more work. They will call and tell me their name and then say, ‘do you remember me, you came and did such and such a job for me about three years ago’? Well my memory isn’t the best when it comes to names but to remember somebody from so long in the past, especially when I meet hundreds of people in a year, is a bit of a challenge. I received such a call tonight and was asked if I had remembered her. Well I had to admit that I didn’t but she continued, ‘you remember that you had to balance on the bed to fit the light’? Strangely enough I remembered having to do that because the bed couldn’t be moved but it was the only thing I did remember. When I call next week to do her job I will most probably remember her face but her name? I don’t think so! I do have a good long term memory in that I can remember even conversations I had with people years ago, places I have been and incidences in my life. Yes I do remember people too but not their names!

Shirley Anne

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Anniversary.

Posted by Shirley Anne on October 18, 2009

Wednesday 14th was an anniversary day for me. Seven years ago I had my operation. The day almost passed me by unnoticed and when I did realise I didn’t celebrate or anything but just remembered back to that day seven years ago when my whole life changed. A friend in Canada has just had her operation and low and behold it was on the same date! Pure coincidence. As I read about her progress it brings the memories flooding back. I don’t dwell on the past though, what’s been has gone but it’s nice to remember the good times in one’s life. My next anniversary will be 21st November, my birthday. These days I don’t celebrate that date, in fact I don’t really celebrate any special days for myself but do like to treat those around me on their special days. New Year means to me just the next day and I never celebrate it. I suppose being a Christian I should enjoy celebrating on 25th December but the fact is I don’t, instead I celebrate being a Christian every day of the year. Anniversaries are to me, simply days to remember moments in my life. I prefer to look forward rather than backward.

Shirley Anne

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