I was just looking at a program about children’s ambitions. Do you remember the ambitions you had when young? Did you have any at all? Many of us would admit to having ambitions in our past but how many of us have fulfilled any of them? The only main ambition I ever had was to transition and be able to live as the woman I always knew I was. If I had any other ambitions they were transient even if they were realised. I cannot think of any major ambition other than that which I have stated, that I might have had. Every day brought something new into my life and I suppose my course in life has adjusted accordingly. Situations encourage change and we can be sent off course quite easily. It takes dogged determination to fulfill a lifetime ambition sometimes for many things can get in the way. I can say that there have been many ‘new horizons’ in my life but eventually I reached my goal. Have you reached your’s yet or is it still an ambition?
A very thought provoking statement needs clarification. If ever you thought you knew what love is this passage will show you if you are right……………..
(New International Version)
1 Corinthians 13
1 If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal.
2 If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but have not love, I am nothing.
3 If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
5 It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
8 Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
9 For we know in part and we prophesy in part,
10 but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.
11 When I was a child, I talked like a child, I thought like a child, I reasoned like a child. When I became a man, I put childish ways behind me.
12 Now we see but a poor reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known.
13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.
Life at the moment is turning out to be one long job. The minute I get to rest another request comes in. It is the busiest time of year for me and the most enjoyable I think because I like the work and I seem to work better under pressure. I could just sit on my butt for half the week but I choose not to. Maybe I should reduce the pressure on myself for fear of allowing my work to be my life. Don’t misunderstand me here, I do take time out but there is always the danger of overdoing it. My problem is that I am too willing, I try to accomodate whenever I can and sometimes it leaves me little time for myself. I like to dine out for lunch during the week and usually I get to do that at least once but more usually I get to do it twice. Sometimes though there just isn’t enough time, a job may overrun and make going out for lunch more like an evening meal! When I came home today I thought to myself, ‘I have nothing scheduled for tomorrow, perhaps I’ll go shopping’. Almost immediately a call came through. Seems I will have to put off shopping until later in the day! At least I’ll get Christmas day off……………….(Once I went out on an emergency on Christmas day…the household had no electricity for their electric oven and the turkey was sitting there waiting to be cooked. I fixed the problem and didn’t charge the people. I’m not making a habit of it though.)
I get calls all the time by people wanting jobs done. Just as well as it is my livelyhood! Joking apart though even though many of my jobs come from my weekly newspaper advert and some through recommendation, I get old clients calling me for more work. They will call and tell me their name and then say, ‘do you remember me, you came and did such and such a job for me about three years ago’? Well my memory isn’t the best when it comes to names but to remember somebody from so long in the past, especially when I meet hundreds of people in a year, is a bit of a challenge. I received such a call tonight and was asked if I had remembered her. Well I had to admit that I didn’t but she continued, ‘you remember that you had to balance on the bed to fit the light’? Strangely enough I remembered having to do that because the bed couldn’t be moved but it was the only thing I did remember. When I call next week to do her job I will most probably remember her face but her name? I don’t think so! I do have a good long term memory in that I can remember even conversations I had with people years ago, places I have been and incidences in my life. Yes I do remember people too but not their names!
Sheesh but it’s windy today! Overnight we had heavy rain and since late morning it has been dry but very windy. The winds are between 20 and 30mph and are promised to die away by evening. I hadn’t planned on going out today but I fancy a meal in a restaurant so later I hope to do that. I had a lazy lie in bed this morning and got up at 9.30. No breakfast just straight to my treadmill downstairs for an hour. That done I bathed and dressed but didn’t get back downstairs until 12.30. I didn’t feel like eating and it wasn’t until 2.00 that I had a sandwich, just one round of bread, a slice of ham and a couple of lettuce leaves. I burned more than that in calories earlier! Now I am drinking some red wine and am in the mood for a session. LOL. It depends on my ex. whether I’ll go out or not. Believe it or not we get on great now and I like to treat her. She is good company. A spell on my computer revealed that I’d not won on the Lotto, nothing new there, so I filled in this weeks attempts! I live in hope but don’t we all? Time for another slurp…..
Today, as almost every day, I will look in at some other people’s blogs and make comment there. In her blog called ‘Patent Pending’, Jillian is writing about her experiences through transition and now, a couple of weeks after her operation she is writing about her experiences with dilation. It is a very necessary routine which we must go through when we have this kind of surgery. It is essential for maintaining the vagina. It gets better though and becomes a once a week affair after a year or so. Last night I was having a session of dilating and fell asleep only to wake up two and a half hours later with the dilator still in place! How coincidental that she should be writing about dilating today.
Sometimes when I am writing something down the same word that I am writing is being spoken on the television which is normally on in the background. It’s uncanny and happens more often than not.
They say that when you have lived with somebody for a long time you become atuned to their thoughts. This I have found to be true. I have lived with my ex. for 35 years and often she can or I can predict each other’s actions. This I think is not merely coincidence though but quite often she will say something or do something that I was thinking of doing too.
Maybe life is full of coincidences or maybe not?
Last night I went into Liverpool, a trip of about 22 miles, to see a movie. My tickets were free but I had no idea what film I would be watching until the lights dimmed. Before we went in we were asked to complete a short questionaire about ourselves from the sponsor of the free show, the Volkswagon group. We were each then given a ‘goodie bag’ containing a snack, chocolate liqueur, facial and body creams, coffee drink etc. and the canvas bag itself. We went into the cinema in expectation but weren’t disappointed with the movie that was presented. It was Mamma Mia. Now when the film started I was a bit unsure because this kind of movie would not normally have been my first choice and I don’t generally like musicals anyway. However I settled into it and was pleasantly surprised. The music of course was first rate and the actors performed very well. The storyline was a bit of a damp squib though. All in all a really good movie and I enjoyed it immensely. We arrived back home fairly late in the evening, sometime after 11pm and as I’d had a difficult working day I was keen to get some shut-eye. I was quickly asleep by midnight. I woke up around 8.45am and was getting dressed when I realised I should have been paying Lauren a visit. Lauren is my electrologist, amongst the many other talents she has in her beauty studio she does electrolysis. Yes, I should have been there. I put it down to age…..LOL. So I will see her next week. Today, so far that is, I have no work so I might indulge myself and go out. Well you only live once! Hope your day turns out ok.
It’s been one of those days again! The morning started with parking restrictions and waiting for my client to turn up on site. In my town’s centre there are severe parking restrictions unless you park at a meter. The problem with my job this morning was that I wasn’t near any meters. The idea was to simply drop off materials and tools etc. go park somewhere and return to do the job. This I finally did but I nearly got booked when I was dropping off materials. The nearest official parking bay for doing that was quite a distance from the job. It’s not as if unloading where I was would be causing a problem as it was a wide street with one way traffic. So I started the job which was a simple one but did it go ok? No way! It was one of the most awkward jobs I’ve done recently. Well I finally finished and went to collect my van which I’d parked a quarter mile away. Talk about time wasting. I went on to my next job 13 miles away. Thank goodness that one went well!
Tonight I am going to the movies. I had thought it was last night but no, it’s tonight. I am using two free access tickets but don’t know yet which film I’ll see. I am dining out beforehand. It has been a very busy week for me and this time of year, that is September through to Christmas, is the busiest time of the year. Usually when I come home in the evenings I am quite tired but I am always up for a night out…LOL
This morning as I set out to work I was wearing a coat. It wasn’t long before I had to remove it. It is so warm and sunny today you’d be forgiven for thinking it was still Summer. It appears we are being fed warm air from the Iberian peninsular, Spain for the uninitiated, this has kept the temperature hovering around 17/18 C. Coupled with bright sunshine it is just like Summer again! We quite often get what we call an Indian Summer in late September or early October, which is really what I have just described but it is almost November! However, rain is still forecast for the rest of the week.
I was just thinking………I do that sometimes, I am sitting here doing practically nothing having just eaten lunch and my thoughts turned to all the activity surrounding me. Not in my room, although hidden from human eyes there are many things going on in the microscopic realm. I was thinking more of the activity down the street and in town. People milling about shopping, eating, drinking, looking at paintings in the art gallery, watching a movie, in fact hundreds of different things. The world goes on without us doesn’t it? The whole planet is thwart with activity of one sort or another and there are probably countless different things going on. How many of them will you be doing? How many will I be doing? Who knows? The thing is though that we will be doing something, anything that relieves the boredom that would otherwise ensue. I wonder about life quite often, why we are here, what follows, does it all matter? We are born to live out our lives and that is all we can do. We have no control over that but we do have control in what we do during our lives, so get out there and do something.