Internet Provider

Update on my switching Internet provider:

Well it happened today and I thought it was going to be all plain sailing, seemless and no trouble whatsoever…………..Ha………
Now I’ve no hair! LOL……only kidding but it was driving me mad trying to get my end set up. Oh yes, I had the necessary CD, the instructions and equipment. All I had to do was put it all together. The mistake I made, apart from bothering to try in the first place, was to use my exsisting router even though it was one of the models which Talk Talk recommend and supply themselves. It took me almost an hour using phoneline help. All went well and I was able to go back online, which I did for an hour or so. Until I switched my computer off (because of windows updates). When I switched it back on I couldn’t re-enable my wireless connection which had not remained accessible. Another session on the phone and I thought it would all be ok. It turned out that I had placed wrong information in setting it up. Finally it now works ok. In doing all of this I am cutting my phone/broadband charges by almost half. I think it was worth the hassle.

Shirley Anne x



People I know are on a journey, a personal journey, one which I have taken myself. These journeys are for a special reason. They are not simply journeys that people undertake every day. They do have similarities in that they have a beginning, a middle and an end. All journeys have a starting point and a finishing point to be sure and the travelling between the two can be boring, exciting, mundane, adventurous, many different things in fact. The whole point of the journey is to get from A to B. The bit in the middle is not as important although if the journey is to be enjoyable that is important in itself.
Well what are these journeys these people and I have made or are presently undertaking? They are life changing journeys and they are essential to the traveller for their own well being. They are journeys which are taken so that the traveller may fulfill a lifetime ambition to become their true selves. These people were born with a defect if you will, one which needs correcting. They are transsexual. They were born in a body which wasn’t right for who they really are inside.
Imagine if you will that you went to sleep one night and woke up in the morning still you but your body was not yours, it belonged to somebody else. Maybe the body of someone in the opposite gender. Imagine then that you had to go through the whole day trying to explain who you really were inside when everybody looking at you could see the opposite. You are a guy and they see a girl. You are a girl and they see a guy! It would be very awkward to say the least. Now imagine you had to spend the rest of your life like that. How horrible would that be? What could you do to correct it? Suppose you could make a journey, a journey to a place where you could make that correction, wouldn’t you buy a ticket immediately?
This is what it is like to be transsexual. This is why these people make the journey. This is why I made that same journey.

Shirley Anne x


Do advertisements annoy you? I am referring to television advertisements. When I watch tv., yes I do watch tv., I find myself being very cynical of the advertisements and the way they are made. I am not in the least influenced by advertising and am certainly not influenced by the subtle ways they attempt to impose their ideas on me. It gets to a point whereby I will totally ignore them and go buy something else! I guess I am a rebel when it comes to advertising. I have to advertise myself in order to get work and my adverts make no claims but state the simple facts about my business, what the business is and what I do, no embellishments just a simple statement to let people know I am there. The thing is this, it works! I feel that advertising these days goes unecessarily too far.

Shirley Anne x


Temptation is something we have all faced at some point in our lives and still do I would think. Temptation may be a good thing or a bad thing depending on your outlook. Now I know the dangers of over-indulgence or put another way, gluttony, so I try not to overdo things. The temptation not to do however can overwhelm and I find I let myself down too often. Certain things I really do try to avoid especially in the area of food! I love chocolate but tend not to eat it unless I know my access is restricted. I don’t buy the stuff but sometimes it is offered by somebody so that helps me further to keep my intake very small indeed. Other areas of my life are treated in the same way but often I fail to resist the temptation. I don’t consider this a failure but I suppose it is. However if all things are done in moderation I feel there is no harm. Obviously there are things I would never do no matter how strong the temptation.

Shirley Anne x

Too Far…

I saw this article on my browser’s front page………….

A post-operative transsexual from Middlefield, Ohio, has been accused of exercising her frail husband to death so she could inherit his retirement benefits, in an attack caught on surveillance video.
Police said Chris Mason forced her husband James, who had heart disease, to do stressful activity in an indoor pool for more than two hours.
He collapsed, and a coroner’s report said he suffered a heart attack and died the next day after Chris Mason authorised his removal from life support.

What can I say?

Shirley Anne x


This poem ought to be for women as much as men don’t you think? Obviously some of the words would need changing but the sentiments remain the same. I think it is such a lovely poem and if we all could live by it’s sentiments we would do well………


IF you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you,
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or being lied about, don’t deal in lies,
Or being hated, don’t give way to hating,
And yet don’t look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream – and not make dreams your master;
If you can think – and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster
And treat those two impostors just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you’ve spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken,
And stoop and build ’em up with worn-out tools:

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breathe a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: ‘Hold on!’

If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
‘ Or walk with Kings – nor lose the common touch,
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds’ worth of distance run,
Yours is the Earth and everything that’s in it,
And – which is more – you’ll be a Man, my son!

Rudyard Kipling.

Shirley Anne x


catrun_e0I am one of those people who loves to travel and yet at the same time I am not bothered if I do or not. The only thing I dislike about travelling is the fatigue associated with it, especially if the journey is protracted. I like all forms of transport and I am not sure which I prefer. Obviously long journeys require the right sort of vehicle if time is important. I like to fly but I like train journeys too. Train journeys offer scenery and the opportunity to walk about if you feel the need. Sea travel as with air travel is fine but unless you’ve something to do there’s often not a lot to see and it can be very boring. I love driving but hate congestion and the habits of all the bad drivers out there. Everything depends on the reason for travel, some journeys being more urgent than others. Do we travel for pleasure or is it just the need to get from A to B? Is it the travelling or the destination that motivates us to journey?

Shirley Anne x

Live Long and Prosper

When I transitioned I was told by a friend that I’d just added about seven years to my life. I smiled and said, ‘I don’t understand’, to which he replied, ‘It’s the hormones, they will make you live longer’. Well he may be right as female hormones are reckoned to be able to slow down ageing and even reverse the effects (at least the visual effects) of ageing. I know I look much younger than my years and people who have known me for much of my life tell me the same thing. However there is another way too………..
It’s a well known fact that if you laugh a lot you’ll live longer than you might otherwise have done. I am talking about a good belly laugh now and then. I enjoy a good laugh myself and many things will start me off. I tend to see the funny side of things and sometimes I get carried away. I just love it. Where I come from, that is my birthplace, Liverpool UK, people there are regarded as having a special humour which is quick witted and often at the expense of the recipient, all in good fun I might add. We call it Scouse Humour.
So go on, have a good laugh and do it often. You might live longer and have fun doing it!

Shirley Anne x


The written word has been developed for communication over space and time. We can communicate with those close to us by direct means, talking but if we wish to communicate with someone afar we need some other means than just our voices alone. Initially of course this was achieved by writing. Now I don’t profess to hold a perfect command of my own language but I hope I can make myself understood sufficiently enough to allow the conveyance of my thoughts. Wow, did I just say that? There are many things to consider before pen is put to paper as it were not least of all the subject. We can spend time writing a letter so that we get it reasonably correct but when we speak we have to get it right first time else correct ourselves constantly. All this you already know of course but I wanted to tell you about somebody, who shall be nameless, who gets it wrong all of the time. This person is a television sports commentator and when I listen to his commentary it annoys me so much. You would think that being in such a high profile job would be enough to make sure he got it right. His basic commentary is good and informative but his syntax is often wrong. He puts the subject at the end of the sentence. For example he will describe a particular footballer’s capabilities and then say his name, like this: ‘He’s not a player who often misses shots on goal, Ronaldo’. Instead of: ‘Ronaldo is not a player who often misses shots on goal’. It might seem trivial but to me it is unforgivable for somebody, especially a journalist to make such elementary mistakes with the language. Rant over………….what do you think?

Shirley Anne x

How Far?

In previous posts (‘Something Different’ and ‘Needs and Wants’) I talked about ambition now I continue the theme with this question, ‘How far are you prepared to go to get what you want’? It may be a job, an object or even a person! At what point do you give in or are you the type of person who will perservere until that desire is met? We can say that some things are unreachable but are they really? I have friends who are transitioning transsexuals and they are fulfilling a lifetime desire to get their bodies changed in keeping with their gender identities. I know others who are working hard to better themselves in their chosen professions and are making the necessary sacrifices to achieve their goals. I know others who have taken the bull by the horns, started a business and are slowly making progress. They are all prepared to go that extra mile to obtain what they want in life. How far is too far when you want something?

Shirley Anne x