Zzzzzzzz

Once I would sleep for a mere four and a half hours each night. Lately however I find I am asleep for longer, sometimes an hour or two longer. This I have discovered coincides with me being less active during the day. It appears that the two things must link in some way. My workload has dropped since Christmas and my sleep periods have increased during the same time. I have no real idea why this is so. Usually if I work I get tired, don’t we all? Why should I then require less sleep when I am working? It does not make sense. I find that I am enjoying a deeper sleep pattern when I sleep for a longer period too. All a bit confusing but as long as I get enough sleep I am happy. We need sleep so that the body can rest but it is also a rest time for the brain. I enjoy sleep because I can dream. I find that dreaming is usually a very pleasant experience for me so I dislike waking during a good dream. Isn’t it always the way that you seem to wake up just at an interesting and usually enjoyable part of your dream? Then reality kicks in and you realise you have to face the day ahead. That means getting out of that cosy bed unfortunately. Sometimes I find myself having ‘cat naps’ in the afternoon. This happens if I have had a hard morning at work or I have just eaten a hearty lunch. Oxygen starvation happens when food gets digested I believe. Perhaps that induces sleep. I like having a ‘cat nap’ but maybe I just like sleeping! Zzzzzzzzzzzz…………..see you later.

Shirley Anne

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Heirs.

I have just watched a program on tv. about probate investigators tracing heirs to people who died intestate. It came to light that in the UK two-thirds of people living here have not made out a will. This has a great effect on how distribution of the estate happens after their death and can cause a lot of unnecessary problems to those they leave behind, especially their loved ones. It doesn’t cost much to make out a will and it saves much heartache later. I have had a will for more than 35 years and after my divorce made out another. I am considering making alterations to my existing will that will cater for everybody. I cannot understand why people resist making out a will when they know how difficult it is for those they leave behind.
Today’s program, as every program, showed another side to the story of tracing heirs and informing them of any inheritance. The researchers often find links in families of which they were unaware. Discovering brothers and sisters, cousins, aunts and uncles, nephews and nieces is a bit daunting but rewarding too. On today’s broadcast we saw two step-sisters united. They had not known of each other’s existence prior to the investigation. They were over-joyed to meet for the first time. I suppose though that uncovering lost links proves awkward for some. I don’t know about you but I would rather meet lost relatives than not ever know.

Shirley Anne

What’s this?

After the aforementioned veritable obnoxious undulating excursions into an indescribably infectious and dangerously debilitating romantically inclined superfluously endowed extraordinary extravaganza, which, notwithstanding caused overwhelming nausea, violent, virulent madness culminating, as it did in every conceivable corporate way to teach us about our often frail, diminutive, indistinct inadequacies forthcoming but typical, results from such escapades never before taken eagerly with innocent meanderings for people not aquainted nor experienced intellectually, manually without forethought or otherwise seemingly mindless animated difficulties expected, therefore resulting predictably, I might say, towards obvious outcomes very painfully slow then inevitably spiralling downwards until stopped by agonisingly excruciating manipulations of involuntary bodily functions overcoming inmost thoughts relieving burdensome dire feelings, most unusual related circumstances covering a host, at this time, meaningless expressions thoughtlessly described herein giving each external encounter overall needless agonising reports too verbally horrifying ear-wise, we left forthwith reluctantly expressing quite rightly all hitherto misgivings manifested.

Shirley Anne

Now what?

Last year I was bemoaning the fact that this computer requires replacing and I was seriously contemplating doing that but didn’t get round to it. Now my audio device seems faulty as the computer tells me it isn’t there. I was attempting to listen to something but found I couldn’t raise the volume. Well you can’t raise something that isn’t there can you? Seems I will need to replace the computer at some point. As it happens I rarely use the sound anyway but I am getting a bit fed up with things going wrong all the time, especially software. I know, I can get things sorted and am often on top of problems but enough is enough. I am not sure what the replacement will be but I am considering an Apple Mac. I will bide my time just now and as in my last post, wait.

Shirley Anne

Waiting.

I have been rather tired lately but it’s not due to overwork or over exertion, far from it. In fact I have done far less than I usually do. This morning, after a six hour sleep, very unusual for me as four to five hours normally does it, I reluctantly got out of bed. I am quite disciplined so the effort, although distasteful was successful. I went downstairs suitably dressed for exercise and proceeded to do a stint on the treadmill. I don’t know how other people feel when starting exercises but for me it is such a bore. After a couple of minutes though I am in my stride and begin to enjoy it. I can feel the effect that raising my heart rate has and it feels good. Cooling down I went to the kitchen for some breakfast, not a lot, just enough to satisfy. Once cooled down I returned upstairs to bathe and dress. When I came downstairs for the second time I went into the back lounge to play guitar for a while. Now I am online writing this. I have no plans to do anything, go anywhere or see anybody today and so far the only person I will be seeing this week is my dentist tomorrow. I am in a waiting phase and I don’t really like it. I want things to happen, things to occupy me, things to entertain my time. Oh I could think of many things I might do but I suppose I am being lazy just waiting. Nothing comes to those who wait they say but I don’t think that is always true. My ambition in life is only to be content. Sometimes I just wait. Today I am just waiting.

Shirley Anne

One year on.

It was one year ago on the 14th Jan when I started this blog, with great trepidation I might add but it has been worth it. It appears I now have a fairly regular readership and have discovered other people’s blogs as a result. I make comment regularly on a few of them too.
Recently, that is on the 3rd Jan, I tried out Blogger as a platform and have posted several things there too. As yet though I have had no responses although I know I have received quite a few visits. My posts there are very different to what I am posting here and have more of a social theme.
I enjoy blogging and hope those who visit my blogs will find something of interest.

Shirley Anne

All gone.

Today there is not one trace of snow or ice anywhere! It is also warmer than it has been lately. The sun is even trying to put in an appearance. Today also, the binmen have been to collect the rubbish. Only four days later than the scheduled day of Tuesday but remember, they didn’t collect it last week either due to the adverse weather.
Yesterday my ex. and I decided to dine out so we drove out-of-town to one of our haunts. Whenever we go there we have a good time. Of late we have found ourselves there quite often on a Tuesday. There isn’t a reason for that, it just happens. However, we have noticed when there, a middle-aged couple regularly sitting in a cosy little corner, enjoying not only their meal but each other too. We call them ‘the lovers’. Before we entered the restaurant yesterday my ex. wondered if we might see ‘the lovers’ there too. On reflection she muttered, ‘No I guess not, it is Friday’. We went in and sat down, next to the same couple! My ex. said something like, ‘Hey, they are here on a Friday’, to which I replied, ‘Perhaps they come here every day’. Who knows? They are obviously in love and it is nice to see that. I’m just wondering how they can afford to eat out every day….LOL

Shirley Anne

Watching Father Christmas.

My ex. received a helium inflated ‘Father Christmas’ balloon some time before Christmas as a token for winning a free ride in an hot air balloon for two to be taken sometime this year. I have been invited to share that moment with her. In the meantime the balloon floats about the lounge ceiling but……..

Watching Father Christmas
Wondering about,
Crawling ‘long the ceiling
In my little house.
Helium inside him
Starting now to thin,
Making him just dance around
So we can notice him.
Soon he will be empty
Soon he will deflate,
Soon he will be gone forever
That will be his fate.

Copyright Shirley Anne 15 Jan 2010

Shirley Anne

Sheep

So, you go with the flow. You have no opinion about an afterlife. You believe that one does not exist. You cannot explain why you think that way but you just do. You are just like the other sheep in the fold. You say you are not and that anyone who believes that nonsense in an afterlife is in fact under an illusion and it is they who are the sheep. You need proof before you believe but you have no faith to believe what you cannot see. So you carry on in the belief that there is no afterlife. Maybe you believe in something else. If asked about that belief you cannot explain why you believe but say that it is just as viable a belief as any other. That means you hope it is the right one else your belief is founded upon nothing. So why believe in one thing and not the other? If asked whether your beliefs have grounding in fact, you cannot answer. What benefits are there in believing in anything? You might as well believe in anything if in fact there is no benefit from it. So what benefits could there be and are they worth pursuing? In this life a benefit may enable a better lifestyle but that would mean that your present cicumstances were not good enough. That again would mean that you are ambitious to improve your situation and why not? What benefit would that be to you? Perhaps you like the idea of being better off than all your neighbours. If so then that means you don’t care much about them. Well if you do care then what are you doing about it? Probably nothing. So why bother with that sort of ambition? At the end of your life you will have achieved basically nothing. Those you leave behind will surpass you. All you have gained will be lost to you and others will reap the benefits. Why then don’t you see that they are satisfied whilst you are still alive? That would make your existence something to be proud of, wouldn’t it? But then that would mean you would be proud. If you don’t mind being proud then that’s alright but others will not see it that way. Do you want to be remembered for being a good person or one that is proud and self-seeking? If all of this is nonsense then what is it that makes sense to you? On what thesis is that based upon? As we grow we form opinions about those things we encounter and either accept them or reject them. We may not know the truth about them sometimes but that often does not prevent us from rejecting them. We can be very irrational in this sphere. We reject things we know nothing about and often accept things in the same way. We resist anyone who tries to tell us otherwise. We can be letting ourselves down by doing this. Somebody somewhere actually knows the truth but are we ready to believe it? No. Why? Because we don’t have the faith to believe. Maybe the sheep description is wrong. Perhaps a more apt description would be an ostrich. Open your heart to faith, then follow your heart when you realise that the truth has been revealed. What truth is that? That is for you to discover. But don’t delude yourself, don’t kid yourself that what you believe is the truth if in fact you know it isn’t. You will know when it is.

Shirley Anne

All around my hat.

‘All around my hat I will wear the green willow’ is a well known traditional song. I have this feeling today. I am wearing the ‘green willow’ but I am not sure why…………

All Around My Hat
(Trad)

All around my hat I will wear the green willow
All around my hat for a twelvemonth and a day
And if anyone should ask me the reason why I’m wearing it
It’s all for my true love who is far, far away

Fare thee well cold winter and fare thee well cold frost
Nothing have I gained but my own true love I’ve lost
I’ll sing and I’ll be merry when occasion I do see
He’s a false deluding young man, let him go farewell he

The other night he brought me a fine diamond ring
But he thought to have deprived me of a far better thing
But I being careful like lovers ought to be
He’s a false deluding young man, let him go farewell he

All around my hat I will wear the green willow
All around my hat for a twelvemonth and a day
And if anyone should ask me the reason why I’m wearing it
It’s all for my true love who is far, far away

Here’s a quarter pound of reason, and a half a pound of sense
A small sprig of time and as much of prudence
You mix them all together and you will plainly see
He’s a false deluding young man, let him go farewell he

All around my hat I will wear the green willow
All around my hat for a twelvemonth and a day
And if anyone should ask me the reason why I’m wearing it
It’s all for my true love who is far, far away

All around my hat I will wear the green willow
All around my hat for a twelvemonth and a day
And if anyone should ask me the reason why I’m wearing it
It’s all for my true love who is far, far away

All around my hat I will wear the green willow
All around my hat for a twelvemonth and a day
And if anyone should ask me the reason why I’m wearing it
It’s all for my true love who is far, far away.

Mmmmmmm…………….

Shirley Anne